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To say I have been on all diets is not even putting a dent in it. I have known all kinds of wild crazy diets, all of them never take into account the ups and downs of life. So, I have decided to just eat healthy foods that i like. My problem is that I LOVE healthy food a lot!! I love to eat it again and again. My this is enough button does not work. When I was younger I excercised for at least four hours a day, but that was before a husband and kids. I had a stressful job and that was my way to relax. So now life is still stressful, just different and harder. I have an autistic child ( he is much younger than the older children) and three teenagers, this has caused a lot of stress in my marriage and for me. I had to give up teaching and find it very difficult to find a job. Because of that we lost our house and now we live with my in-laws. Although I love my youngest son so much and he is so precious and believe me, I rejoiced when he said I love you and when he keeps his pants up! It puts life in a place where getting a big house and a new car  and the perfect swimsuit body, will never be, real life. So, I am trying to lose weight so I can stay alive for my son. SO I hope that I will continue to lose this weight and I thank you for your encouragement.

Food Log

Today was a day I ate tooooooo much!!! Especially for dinner!! I have not felt this full in weeks!!! I ate a yam for dinner and I felt like I ate a small elephant! (It was a HUGE yam not a sweet potatoe, it is white on the inside) it was so, good!! I love yams and had not had one like that since i was a child. It was so great and it made me happy, which made me mad, because food should not make you happy! Yet, it does!! It makes me happy and loved and guilty and sad….. Why should a day ( A WHOLE DAY) good or bad depending on what you eat??? So I worked out for almost 2 hours hoping that my almost 1000 calorie dinner will have a dent in it. But tomorrow is another day and I will not let this day put a shadow on tomorrow. I will lose this weight!! I will!!! I will not give in or give up!! SO for everyone who had a “bad” food day, REJOICE there is always tomorrow to try, try, try again!!!!:)

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Exercise Log

Today I got on the scale and was shocked and dismayed to see a weight GAIN!! I did not add the weight gain on my tracker until Friday which is my real weigh day. There is no way!! So I will not freak out and I will wait a few days to weigh again. I measured my waist and hips and thighs and I have lost inches everywhere! 7 off my hips (YES!!!) and 2 off my waist, and one off each thigh(I was disappointed about that one, but something is better than nothing!!) SOO, to all those out there that get mad at the scale, take out the measuring tape and get a good surprise!! My diabetes meds and high blood presure meds sometimes make me gain water weight, that makes me more determined to get this weight off!! I have been sticking to the 1500 calories and working out an hour a day, so I know that in time I will lose the weight. Thank you for all the encouragement it really makes me want to keep going and not give up and have chocolate cake! :]

Today I went to the doctor and although I have lost four pounds from last time (two weeks ago(218 and am now 214) , I want to lose this weight yesterday!! I excercise, I eat right blah, blah, blah!! When I was younger losing weight was a breeze, NOW it is a major deal, i feel like its  a mad science trying to find the right combination of food and excercise! I wish it was easy!! But I guess if it was I could publish my findings get on Oprah and be very rich. BUT i will stick with it!!

So today I decided to eat no chocolate and that helped the snack attack from repeating. I did have 1/2 cup of Vanilla ice cream at for desert at dinner time and that makes me want to STOP eating. This is  a great accomplishment since I have been know to eat a LOT. I did my 5 mile walk and that made me feel great!! I am wondering if I should do pilates for abs, I need to get my core in shape. Anyway , anyone do the Leslie Sansone walking dvds? I have no idea how many calories I burn doing them. I hope you all are doing well and moving that body!! We can all get to where we need to be with a little help from above!

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Exercise Log

I have been hit with a major snack attack!! I think the chocolate triggered it!! Almonds, orange and 100 calorie pop corn is not bad but it does add up!! AAAAACKKKKK!!!!

Today was harder but I stayed focused on the goal of getting off meds. I made chicken wings ( fatty, yummy, sweet) and loaded potatoes, ( yes it was very hard!!) BUT I did not have the wings! I made skinless, boneless baked lemon pepper chicken and LOTS of lettuce and spinach and half a potatoe with only 1 teaspoon sour cream!! It is still early but I am determined not to be fat anymore. I also had a bananna with 100% melted dark chocolate (very yummy!!) I am only 62 calories off the 1500 but I am doing extra excercise today! So far my blood sugar is staying around 100 for once!! One day at a time!!

Today was my first day and I am so excited I made my goals of the day! 1500 calories in food and I did my 5 mile walk dvd!! So another day down!! I am feeling great!